So I was in the car with my husband when he started saying that basically my mom is the way she is because of me. Dont get me wrong I thought of it a few years back before I started to find out where she went crazy. But I started defending her. We stopped and I realized my hand was in a fist. My thoughts started to wonder. My husband asked if I was okay to drive. I thought I was. Got to the house to drop off my husband. I took my son and drove to a gas station. I started shaking and was trying to hold back the flash backs. All I know is my emotions went crazy. I parked and while I was turnig to park I couldnt hold back the flash backs. I ended up bumping the curb and knocked me out long enough to park the car. I managed to destract my self long enough that I didnt start up again tell I was close to home. I eneded up crying as soon as I got on my street. Some reason my eyes burn when I cry so because of it I was crying worse. I managed to get in the drive way and park. Then I cried while trying to calm myself down. Thanks to my support I managed.
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